Sunday, May 13, 2007

Spiritual Barometer

The readings on my barometer aren't looking so promising these days. There is little zeal in my every day efforts to improve home management, although I embrace that responsibility readily. Passion for my calling in marriage and motherhood is dwindling, yet I am wanting to invest wholeheartedly. I find myself lacking in positive input for those closest to me, even though they are truly dear to my heart.

Why? Because I am running on empty, as she so aptly communicated. Like her, I need to fill my lamp, stop fooling myself, cut out the charade, and get serious about investing in my relationship with Him. A snack in the morning is hardly enough. This quick-stop mentality has sucked me in and it's time to get off the merry-go-round.

The things that are important to me act as a barometer. My inability to perform as I would like indicates that change has happened, and the downward trend will continue unless I do something. You can't give out good bread if you have no nutrition yourself.

And I, for one, want to bless my husband. I hope to do him good all the days of my life.

I, for one, want to give my children good things. I hope to nurture them in the Lord's ways.

I, for one, want to establish my home. I hope to build my house, not tear it down.

And apart from Him, I can do no good thing.

So it's time to set my affection on things above, seek Him earnestly, and find Him to be a present help in trouble.

Great is His faithfulness! And that my soul knows very well.


Anonymous Anonymous said...

That is so the way things seem to have been in my life, (sans 7 children) lately.
My morning Bible "snack" had become barely a bite, my afternoon sit down, became a stand up and read on the go. All so unhealthy and under nourishing. God was not pleased.
So, God and I have had a little tete-a-tete and changes are beginning.
My Word is a 4 course meal now, with a mid-morning and mid-afternoon snack of a short devotional. Before bed there is an actual sit down and pray the Word aloud session! So much is learned from reading the Word aloud--it penetrates the heart in a different way!I now am attempting to do Scripture memorization again, (Oh, a 50 year old mind is a terrible thing to waste!!!). I desire God's irrefutable Word to be etched profoundly into the meat of my heart forever.
Interestingly enough, in the past 2-3 weeks of this, I have noticed a better fed, dare I say, fatter? Spiritual me. Everything around me exudes a richer scent, a deeper feel, a more meaningful context.
The old, newly saved me is re-emerging but with more wisdom and knowledge. Do you think that He intends for it to be this way?
This is good stuff Darlene. Really excellent post!
Michele (catzndogz9 on xanga)

12:23 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh, how I can relate to this post! I have had the exact same thoughts in the past few days. Too busy...or so I say. I, too, need to refocus on Him! He is so faithful. ~Michele

12:25 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I truly notice a difference in my spiritual sensitivity and ability to "give good bread" when I have kept my lamp full of oil. More than that, I want to fill it so much that He makes it larger! There are so many more lives He could touch through me (and all of us!) if only we were full enough to give it out!

7:38 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

wow! this is really really good. one cannot give good bread... wow. thanks.

11:01 PM  

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