Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Meltdown Lord

Sometimes expectations, our own and others, don't agree with reality. When those around me look to me for the accomplishments of said expectations and I'm not up for the task, meltdowns can happen.

I give myself a peptalk, I step back in an effort to muster up what it takes, then I scrape the bottom of the barrel for creative solutions only to find that the peptalk lacks luster, I am too weak for mustering anything, and the barrel is depleted from yesterday's effort (and the day before and the day before...)

Now what? Too many times sharp words are spoken, revealing frustration and sense of failure. One more demand and tears fill my eyes. Yup. This is a bonafide meltdown.

Life has presented an opportunity to remember something vital: He is all I need. He always has been and always will be.

Whew. Thank You, Lord, for the reminder. I needed that.